Schwellenangst (noun) Origin: German | shwel·en·ahngst Fear of crossing a threshold to embark on something new
Schwellenangst has always been an anomaly to me. I have spent my life living in a mostly fearless way. I have embraced the new and have actively sought it out. Sameness bores me. I have lived a life that has required me to be quick at making decisions that have hurled me into the new. Spontaneity has described the essence of me and is what and who I have been.
I think that this is why the last year has been so hard on me. As much as not being able to be spontaneous and come and go as I please, there has been some comfort in being isolated, locked inside, living silently in my safe cocoon solitude with no interference. It has even been refreshing to be slightly bored.
Though I am looking forward to some upcoming changes that might bring me back to my normal. In the same manner, for the first time in my life I am feeling a surge of schwellenangst at all of the newness that is bound to emerge as I enter this new normal.
“Fear and anxiety many times indicates that we are moving in a positive direction, out of the safe confines of our comfort zone, and in the direction of our true purpose.”
“We do not fear the unknown. We fear what we think we know about the unknown.” – Teal Swan