Saudade (noun) Origin: Portuguese | sɐw’dadə A nostalgic longing to be near again to something distant or someone that is distant.
I am nostalgic about almost every place I have ever been. I miss the memories of the traveling I have done, of the places I have seen, of the people I have met. I took a trip to Croatia with my youngest daughter a few years ago and it really was an amazing time. Sure there were the mommy/daughter moments that were outrageously annoying. However, I prefer to only remember the best parts of that trip.
I think it’s easier to remember … and to forget the annoyances of traveling with family than it is regarding issues that arise while traveling with friends. For me, it is because family has known you forever and you have your patterns and histories of the good and the bad. For every bad there is a good. Especially with your children. My dream has always been to show my children the world. Luckily for me, I have been pretty successful at that.
Though I do love traveling with friends. There is always a feeling of saudade when my children or family are not around. I feel like I have let them down by not having them participate in my adventure. The re-telling is never the same as the being there. Also, there is a freedom of being able to comfortably be at your best, your worst, your goofiest, your happiest, and even your saddest. I am looking forward to more travels with them, more memories with them, and really, just being nearer to them.
“That strange sense of being different stays with you. You long to be with people who are more like you. Similarities are what bonds humans than differences, Beevitha.”