Novaturient (Adjective) Origin:  Latin | A desire for powerful change in one’s life or situation.

ETYMOLOGY: The word “nova” originates from the Latin novus meaning ‘new’.

“Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)”
― Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass


“Grief does not change you, Hazel. It reveals you.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

So many “aha” moments in a person’s life.  Kids being born, family dying, graduations, marriages, big moves.  Or let’s just say an unexpected pandemic.  You start asking yourself questions.  Do I stay or do I go?  Do I settle or do I move on?


“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
― Leo Tolstoy

My life has been about changing myself.  I have sought out continual change.  I have attempted to fit in where ever I am and who ever I am with.  I have never felt good enough, or ready enough, old enough, or even young enough.  Rich enough or happy enough to settle for what and where I am.  The past year has made me realize that, at least for myself, I am enough.


“It’s only after you’ve stepped outside your comfort zone that you begin to change, grow, and transform.”
― Roy T. Bennett

As much as I have tried to fit in and be everything for everyone.  I have also spent my life stepping out of my comfort zone.  So often am I living in uncomfortable positions that I sometimes think I will never be able to be comfortable just in one place. Just being me. That’s almost more scary then change.


“Even if you cannot change all the people around you, you can change the people you choose to be around. Life is too short to waste your time on people who don’t respect, appreciate, and value you. Spend your life with people who make you smile, laugh, and feel loved.”
― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

This is my aim.  My newest epiphany.  My newest desire for change in my life and in every situation I find myself in.  Acceptance of self.  And with acceptance of self, acceptance of others.  Though I feel that I have always accepted others, I am now realizing that the way I feel I have been has not been the way I have been perceived by others.  My change will be demonstrating to myself and to others that I am willing to accept them as they are just as I am willing to accept myself as I am.  It’s a weird notion for me but I do know that this is the powerful change that I need to move towards.  Just looking for smiles my friend.

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
― Lao Tzu

“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.”
― C. JoyBell C.

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”
― Eric Roth, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button Screenplay

Powerful change/powerful acceptance:   Better; Nim; GS; Val; Happypanda; pvcann; fit; NVI; Erika; Cherie; AP2; Jenna; Angela; JJ

31 days of randomness – Personal Inspiration 24 – Bringing Sexy Back

In continuation of my 31 days of randomness  – Day 24 – Laugh at yourself and mean it.  Accept yourself and mean it.

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.”  – Buddha

The day is here.. I’m really finally after so many years very o.k. with myself.  I’ve been mostly o.k. with me for many years but now I’m absolutely ok with me.  I knew this for certain when I allowed my friends to take certain terrible photos of me and post them.  They were / are somewhat terrible photos and many friends have asked me why I would allow these photos to be taken at all, let alone be posted.  I had a few friends beg me to take them down or they would un-friend me.  I’m sure they were joking about the “un-friending” comment.

There was a tiny part of me that wanted to take them down and destroy them. (When I say destroy them, I really mean destroy the people who posted them!!!)  I had a friend whose parent once said to me “Wow!! you really do NOT take very good photos!!” My friend of course nearly choked but it was a true statement and honesty is my favorite character trait right below humor.  The truth is I am much better looking in person or in action than I am in a still shot which is probably why online dating never really panned out for me.

However, the photos ARE kind of funny and well … bottom line is they are exactly who I am and what I looked like at the time of the photo.  These photos have made me laugh and made some of my friends laugh as well.  I’m inspired to post them as they really do represent an important part of me and who I really am.  They also inspire me to once again “attempt” to let go of some of my insecurities.  To remind myself that I am Sam, I am all that I am all of the time and that’s really ok.

What I am is how I came out. No one’s perfect and you just have to accept your flaws and learn to love yourself. – Kelly Brook

Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.  – Lucille Ball

This all started from a random site I found called  Apparently there is a group of people who have committed to posting a topical theme a day for 31 days.  31 Dayers 2012

Body Parts


“A human being is part of a whole, called by us the Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness.”   Albert Einstein quotes

My hands                               When you look at this hand here is what you see.. Long thin fingers, short nails, thick veins and knobby knuckles..What you don’t see is.. all of the tears they have wiped away, the little hands they have held and led, the words they have written, the injuries they have sustained, the kids who loved to trace the veins, the way they look nearly exactly like my mother’s hands.

My arms      

When you look at these arms here is what you see.. slightly thin and tan, bony elbows, lack of muscle mass.What you don’t see is.. the children and friends they have hugged, the weight I have lifted in a variety of situations, the way they swing when I walk or run, the babies they have comforted and rocked to sleep at night, the counter-balance role they have played in deflecting specific problems or the people they have pushed away.

My feet

When you look at these feet here is what you see.. long unpainted toes, veiny like my hands and leading up to very skinny, weak ankles..What you don’t see is.. the miles they have walked, the burdens they have bore, the stubs, the fractures and cuts and tears they have endured, the balance and often lack of balance they have contributed to supporting all of my endeavors and the shocks they have experienced.

My legs

When you look at these legs, here is what you see.. skinny legs and boney knees, tan, appearance of being weak. What you don’t see is the weight they have carried, the miles they have run, the hills they have climbed, they have helped me walk away from my problems and escape from some enemies.  They have surpassed my imagination in the strength and stamina they have provided in the hundreds of moves I have made in my life.

My mouth

When you look at my mouth here is what you see.. thin lips, pale tongue, natural and uneven teeth with high gums.

What you don’t see is.. The words that they have uttered in happiness, sadness or anger, the variety of foods they have eaten, the soft kisses they have placed on my children’s warm heads, the millions of reasons for the millions of smiles and laughs they have had.

My eyes

When you look at my eyes, here is what you see.. eyes that are a bit beady, wrinkles, thin eyelashes, surprise, anger, frustration, laughter and a variety of emotions that they have never been able to hide.

What you don’t see is.. everything they have seen.  The cities and countries around the globe. The joy and pain of watching my children grow, my mother die, the tears of sadness and tears of laughter that have resulted from all of my life events.  The way I look at the world and how my view points have been formed.

“The things we hate about ourselves aren’t more real than things we like about ourselves.”

– Ellen Goodman

The next step is putting all the parts together.